So once again I’m way behind in school and it’s my fault this time. My mind isn’t constantly revolving around school and the people around me like it was for the previous 4 years. All I think about now is going back home and how out of place I am here. For a while I was one of the typical people in my town who complained how everyone is fake and how much it sucks here but I’ve realized it’s not really that, this place just isn’t for me and the people aren’t for me. Not gonna say anything more than that against it because there are a couple names I could call out as an example. But I wont. I’ll just say that if you aren’t a partier than you wont fit in. I have the worst case of being homesick, it’s taken a toll on my body, habits, grades, relationships and personality. Nothing truly positive has happened to me here. I mean yeah there’s graduating high school and making new friends and discovering new things, but those would have happened to me anyways. My grandfather passed away in December and if we never moved, I would have had an extra 5 years with him and stayed good friends with all my old ones. Now we never talk :/ 

But anyways, I just can not keep going on here or I’m just going to get worse and worse and I don’t even want to know where that will lead. 

Ok bye